Dad,

young, I use to believe that I had actually had the world all figured out,
but now, as I grow, I know that having the world all figured out is
virtually impossible because I now realize that I will never understand
even the simplest things that life has to offer, like why people love who
they love, and why people fight with the ones they love the most.

People use to tell me that I was going to go places, that I was the one
that was actually going to be somebody . . . that somebody that my parents
never were, that somebody they long for me to be, and that somebody I have
always dreamed of becoming, not just to satisfy myself but also to satisfy
my family and those around me. Now it is as if my life has taken a 360
degree turn around the sharpest corner of life. I am so confused on
everything. I am now beginning to question all of my goals and
aspirations in life that I had once set for myself. Life is getting too
complicated for me, I’m to the point where I am just living day by day,
completely careless to those around me. Though I feel as if I have
everything in life that a girl could ask for – I have a lot of friends,
family, and a boyfriend that cares for me greatly, I feel more alone than
I ever have before. I just have this emptiness inside of me, and I don’t
know how to fill it.

I say that I am in love, but who really knows what love is?
I guess I’m just another crazy teenager, taking one long ride on
the Roller Coaster of life. Where and when will this roller coaster stop?
Nobody knows, not even myself, all I know is I am ready to get off now.
Some days I just wish that I could be totally oblivious to the world and
other days I long for people to be around me.

I use to be a very caring person, I would do anything for anyone but now
it’s as if I have no cares, and now worry about what people will think of me
if I don’t do what is expected.

I have stopped living by what other people think of me and I have started
living how I want to live. I no longer act like the person I am not, I
show my true colors and many do not like them. Maybe that is why I am so
confused . . . I don’t know who to satisfy, myself or the people that care
about me.

I don’t think that I will ever understand this roller coaster and why I was
chosen to take this ride, right now I don’t know if it will ever even come
to a complete stop, but until it does I guess I will just keep feeling
this way inside.

Love,
Nikki

Teen Poems

“God, if you love me, I know it’s right,
Please let us make love tonight,”
She asked Him with a pleading voice,
Thinking she had made the right choice.
She put on music that seemed best,
He would get right to the rest.
She didn’t exactly know why she felt,
A cold hollow feeling as he undid his belt.
Her parents found them before it got worse,
She kicked and screamed and hit and cursed,
But ceased when she heard their news.
Many girls had been in her shoes,
They didn’t stop him, he caused their strife,
And soon AIDS would take away his life.
See, God really loved her and kept her safe,
And now she has complete and total faith.

Teen Poems

Loneliness is blue like sadness.
It tastes like a sour lime with salt on it.
It smells like rotten food and causes madness.
For fun it likes to do nothing but bad things.
While almost everything makes it angry
Everything makes it sad,
But nothing makes it happy.

Loneliness is smaller than you and me,
But bigger than peoples’ minds.
Happiness is its enemy,
But nothing can be its friend.
Loneliness keeps its happy feelings in a secret place.
Its favorite place is in peoples’ minds.
But it hates to be anywhere else.
Making people feel bad is its greatest success.
Not cheering people up it is greatest failure.
Loneliness makes me feel as sad as a deserted island.

Teen Poems

Daylight breaks through equal bliss,
All the reruns consume our history.
Falling from grace,
I hope you’ll come sit by me.
All I wish is your hand,
It’s the entrance to your soul.
Each dream I had about you,
Got lost or thrown away;
I can’t wait forever,
Can’t you kiss me now?

All the poems I wrote,
Died and burned away.
You took another man,
After stealing my heart;
It cracked in two,
One for hate the other for you.
Didn’t I wait long enough?
Leaving it for the perfect time.
I can’t look at you now,
Won’t you turn away?

It’s lonely where I am now,
But I can’t turn away.
I think about you all the time,
Won’t you come listen to me?
Maybe one day I’ll get your kiss,
So I’ll feel your lips,
I won’t let the moment pass me by,
Please stay as the star in my sky;
Each day is lost without you.
Maybe one day it’ll turn out my way!

Teen Poems

The desks line up
Perfectly.
I drift away
Move into a corner
Books fall onto my desk
10, 15 of them.

All I can see above the mountain
Of books is your head.
5 more books pile
onto my desk.

I can imagine myself
Running through the forest.
When I stop, I see the words
“You are bad.”
“You will always be alone.”
“No one will like you.”

I believed you for years.
I thought I was worthless
Because my mother told me,
“The teacher’s always right.”

Teen Poems